sparkleandsunshine

I’m meeting with my therapist and parents in like 5 hours and I already feel like I’m going to cry

Hahahhaha so this happened

Hahahhaha so this happened

I had this sort of epiphany last night. I was driving on 95 south at sunset and the sky was bright orange and just so beautiful and my windows were down and my hair was blowing all around and I realized how crazy yet doable it was to just keep driving and end up somewhere else like Georgia or Florida or wherever else I’d want to stop along the way

I had this sort of epiphany last night. I was driving on 95 south at sunset and the sky was bright orange and just so beautiful and my windows were down and my hair was blowing all around and I realized how crazy yet doable it was to just keep driving and end up somewhere else like Georgia or Florida or wherever else I’d want to stop along the way

I literally don’t think my day could have gone any worse than it did……

I just feel so blah

Do not want to move.

Do not want to move.

im having such a debate about cutting my hair to a messy long bob or letting it grow out longggggg

help

Almost cried at work today. Held myself together. So proud

My parents are meeting with my therapist tonight 😖😖😖

My tumblr turned 4 today and I just past 4,000 followers last night! Love y’all 😘😘😘

my ‘friends” are the worst i swear

mentally preparing myself to give my parents this letter

Dear Mommy and Daddy,

I’d like to be heard. I’d like my feelings validated such as I’ve been feeling very sad for many years. There were a few times in middle school when I wanted to die. I don’t feel that bad now, but I’m still constantly sad and that’s why I’m seeing a therapist. I’m trying to feel better, but it’s really hard. I feel like you don’t take me seriously when I say that I’m sad and you don’t understand how hard it is for me to actually be happy.

My therapist has suggested that I try antidepressants in addition to talk therapy. We’re also working on mindfulness and staying in the present moment to help with my anxiety.

I don’t feel i could say all of this to you in person, so that’s why I’m writing a letter. I feel like we don’t face our problems and aren’t willing to talk about them. 

I feel very misunderstood. I suffer from depression and low self-esteem and I’m regularly anxious. I feel very alone. I need your love and support and for you to know what’s really going on with me. It’s not your fault.

Love, Heidi

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